Always what you can't have

I left your house this morning about a quarter after nine
coulda been the Willie Nelson coulda been the wine
when I left your house this morning
it was a little after nine
it was in Bobcaygeon I saw the constellations
reveal themselves one star at a time

Drove back to town this morning with working on my mind
I thought of maybe quitting
thought of leaving it behind
went back to bed this morning
and as I'm pulling down the blind
the sky was dull and hypothetical
and falling one cloud at a time

That night in Toronto with its checkerboard floors
riding on horseback and keeping order restored
til the men they couldn't hang
stepped to the mic and sang
and their voices rang with that Aryan twang
-- BOBCAYGEON - THE TRAGICALLY HIP 

 I was thinking about love and how it can really liberate your soul and make you feel the most alive you have ever been before.  Why is it, then, that people always seem to migrate towards the unobtainable?  If you are short, you want to be tall.  If you're pale (like me) you probably lust after a tan, people with curly hair usually straighten it where millions of perms happen every year to make straight hair curly.
In my opinion the secret to happiness is to be content with every moment and every gift this life has blessed you with.  If you are lucky to find love, embrace it, appreciate it, and cherish it; because it can touch your life in a special way and offer you the possibility to enhance the life of someone else that you really care about.  If something is lost, or broken, let it go and do not dwell on what you can not change.  A positive attitude is what causes true happiness and feeling bliss in every moment and situation.


In a completely opposite tone, I made funky photos of myself in a class learning Photoshop last year.  I've gotten a lot better at it since then but I thought I'd show my version of myself tanned, with dark hair.  There is also an image of my face that I blended into a girl DJ with a larger chest.  These are things I have wanted to change about myself in the past but have accepted by now.

There is also a quick outfit snap in my front yard as well as a close up on a purse and necklace.

Original photograph taken by Ryan Thomas

This was one of my first experiments on photoshop.  I can make my hair look darker a different way now that works better but I had a lot of fun playing with my makeup and skin!  My eyes are also really dark here.

I played with the Liquify tool here to change my face to look like a porcelain doll. 

Avatar!  I didn't have the best luck with my teacher's tutorial so I mostly did my own thing here.

Morphed my face onto another girl's body!  I have always wanted bigger breasts but I still love mine.

Outside in my front yard!
Wearing:
Skirt - Le Chateau (about 8 years old)
Tanktop - Forever 21
Heels - Zara
Purse - BCBG

Small purse but it holds just about all the essentials.  Got it on sale at Winners, it used to have tassels on the side but I thought they were too long so I cut them off.  I like tassels to an extent what do you guys think?

 Close up of the necklace!  My dad got it for me in Montreal from a Japanese jewelry designer.

Thank you so much for reading!
Your sweet comments make my day :)
XXo Veronica